May it be my fate. May it be my life. May I love you?
All that I could do is wait.
But the waiting would not last, and I know that.
Chances aren't finding me and fate drift me apart from you.
For I know that you would be loved
Loved by someone who once loved you and hurt you twice.
I wouldn't know if he's true, All I know is I'm forever true.
希望他是真的比我还要爱你 我才会逼自己离开
It's hard to let go 但
我会学著放弃你 是因为我太爱你
The cruelty of the reality
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
I dream of you, but there's a him beside you
I cry sliently I cry inside of me I cry hopelessly
I don't know why I rather the truth be kept unknown
It's mayb the fate
Fate that you two will be together again
A signal to me
For me to give up.
除了祝福我不想再多说一句
你怎么舍得我难过
对你的思念 是一天又一天
孤单的我还是没有改变
美丽的梦 何时才能出现
亲爱的你 好想再见你一面
秋天的风 一阵阵的吹过
想起了去年的这个时候
你的心到底在想些什么
为什么留下这个结局让我承受
最爱你的人是我 你怎么舍得我难过
在我最需要你的时候 没有说一句话就走
最爱你的人是我 你怎么舍得我难过
对你付出了这么多 你却没有感动过
Sunday, January 23, 2005
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
Time
It's time for me to blog again.It's been bout a month since I last written some..
Let's see.
1.Working at a warehouse.(Whole holiday)
2.Finish doing the preview of my flash.
3.Bought new clothing.(Exclude shoes)
4.Went X'mas celebration(Fun)
5.New Year Celebration(Boring/Alone)
6.ITE 2nd sems starts
7.Went to TP for interview(Think can't get in.. :( Fated to be in ite)
Ok.that's briefly what things happened.
Let's get into more detail
1. Working
It's really an experience to work, no matter is it your first time working or not.
Every job has it's own challenge.
Logistic, or in Layman's term, warehouse management, it's sure not an easy job to do.
Don't get me wrong here, I'm not managing the warehouse, but from the experience that I had, It isn't an easy job. careful planning is needed
I can see, my workplace, I name it WT in short, doesn't plan it well.. their SQL system also got problem.Btw, SQL is database. There's still stock in the warehouse, yet the SQL read it as cannot find..Server also always down. Replenishment list always come in 10 over plus pages. Wonder the shop really does sale that much or not?haha..
Anyway, got some benefits too, like discount coupon given to staff. Well, actually it's benefit staff, yet they gave it at the time during end year sales. So whether or not to use the coupon or not, it doesn't really matter.
I got the chance of doing delivery for one day too.
Well, it's better to do delivery, cos most of the time you are sitting in the vehicle waiting.Then till destination, you unload the goods and send it to the shops. The only important thing is, you must be fit. To carry the good. I did sent yoshinoya's goods, and there is also benefit, you could ask for drink or food(It's free of charge) :)
But don't think I'll be returning there to work till my next Holiday. It's somehow tiring.
I did OT once till 10pm before. 5hrs of OT. That kills man..
2. Flash
As you can see, under My Flash I have include one more "14feb preview"
Though is is just a small intro, i used alot of time and effort..
And i doubt i can present the story on time..
Till den, Wait for my update.
3. New Clothing
Yup, I have bought some clothing. 1, 2, 3, 4. Yup I bought 4cloth. red jacket, Brown with dotted white stripe long sleeve, green t-shirt and last but not least a PINK shirt. haha
I can't believe that I bought a pink shirt. What on earth is my mind think at that time.
Mayb kanna psycho by the boss. but the shirt look nice. Mayb not on me.. Anyway, I still try. Got to give it. a try on everything right? life's short. Have to go tanning, get darker and wear pink, mayb look nicer or at least not that weird. :)
I only bought two jeans. or should I say cargo jeans? it's not normal type of jeans. It's abit like pants. I also dunno why my taste/style so different now.. haha.. Seemed like my fashion sense has gone.Dunno how to differentiate from nice and not.
One thing I haven't got-Shoe.It's seemed like no nice shoes available on the market now. All the design are almost the same. Well, I saw one, but it costs 99 Sing dollar. Not that I can't afford, it's like, what the hell, I dun even know the brand and it costs that much.. So I gave up on that choice. Mayb going to get an nike shoe/adidas/converse. Not sure. Hope I'll get it sooner.
4. X'mas Celebration(2004)
Before going for the celebration, I was working, somemore OT. So I'm scare cannot make it on time to meet my bunch of crappy Peng You(Fren). haha.. Well, but Dan and Me make it on time. Although we did not make it on time for dinner at a place which Kim said the food is nice or is it cheap?It's in Shaw tower, if I nv remember the name of the place wrongly.Forgot. We reached the place 8plus to 9. It's close. So we no choice, we walk to Bugis Junction and had our usual, FOODCOURT meal. haha. by the time we eat finish. It's 10 plus and I think we walk to orchard from there..
Meeting Jo/Joe(dunno the spelling) and his gf ar ISTANA, btw, Joe is Song Jun.
After which, Stan intro him self to his gf. while Boon, Dan and me keep to ourself. Think we are more introvert when meeting stranger.And of cos, not fogetting our casanova-Kim. Think he did intro him self, or he had seen Joe's gf before we do.
So we walk from Dhoby Ghaut to Somerset to Orchard. On the way, there were already people spreading the foams.. Human get crazy before the Real things starts.. haha..
Luckily we were not being "attack" before the counting down..But near to counting down, we were being spray. So as time goes on and on, and we being spray, end up we cannot take it also go buy the foam spray and starts spraying on everyone...Till countdown,It gets more crazy and crazier. Joe sent his gf home right after the countdown. Hmm.. Spoilt mood.haha
Walking down the road of orchard
You could see all the Black(India I mean) got attack by other racial group. and of cos, it's only chinese. As you can predict. I joined in the "Gang Bang" spraying. haha..It's so much fun. One group spraying another..
One thing to add on, mei3 mei4 only spray at Dan. So this conclude that Dan is the yandao in our group. Bo bian..pple handsome. :)
The spraying nv stop till 2plus den it gradually stop or not that many pple spraying.
Psss..We spent bout 30buck on those spread. CRAZY man!!.
So we were all feeling sticky with all the foams and party spray thing. got ourself clean up onnce yet got spray one more time.
After that, we walk back to Plaza Singapura, clean up again. Settling down outside PS.Feeling all tired out and Hungry. Good thing that there's an Creation of 24hr shop 7eleven and invention of instant. So few of us ate instant/titbit.(Joe is back with us,cos it's already 3plus)
Then we ton till around 430 and took a night rider back. It's damn expensive. 3buck per ride. well it pays to ton. haha.
Reach home bout 530, got about an hour of slp and went working.
Sat(X'mas), half day work, yet there are many things to finish, so work till 4. After work, reach home, planned to get some slp, yet. after bathe, it refreshes me somehow.
And got myself endup meeting Yvonne for a midnight show "meet the focker"(pronounce the focker as the rude word).
Then after show, when sunplaza park chat for bout half an hour and went back.
by that time, I been into a record of 45hr, of? Nv slp.. woah..record..haha
that ends how my x'mas spent last year. It's better than staying at home for year 2003.
5. New Year Celebration
hmm.. New year celebration isn't that fun as X'mas'. Went to wedding dinner on the eve after my work, den when downtown to find kim. Yet when I reached there, I tried calling him and sms, he didn't reply or answer the phone. So I find myself a place outside the celebration party/concert is held, and stood there like Invisible/idiot. Tried call kim before the countdown and it goes..toot toot toot..and all i heard is the operator voice. yup, toot as i'm feeling. Then I'm leaning on a pillar, watching the many pple walk past me, the couple that walk past, infront, left and right of me. It was like, Oh My God, you don't give me a gf already nvm, leave me alone in the celebration and watch the many couple that is around me. the only face I could show that time is sulked. And there goes the countdown. I was like, Oh big deal. and stood there quietly. then 2005 reached, an couple beside me, hugged. "Ha" "Ha", lucky they are not kissing.. If not, I'll name the celebration the worst chapters in my life..
Ok bout 1230+, Kim called back, den we when back to his "company" 's chalet.. he keep intro me to his colleague, but think I remembered only two name. Leslie and Junwei. Yup, you see it right. another person name Junwei.
hmm.. In these pass month, I've known bout 3 person name Junwei, But in chinese, english spelling, I think some is different. Junwei quite a common name now huh? last time nv meet more then 1. haha. i know bout 5 Junwei now. O.O amazing huh?
Ok, before I side-tracked, after the chalet which I stay about 2-3hr, Me and Kim walk to 201. half way thru walking, we rest for awhile, kim leg pain/tired. forgot. after the rest, we walk awhile, I say going to rain, den another few steps, it started to rain. Unlucky mouth. den we flap for a cab. kim ask me when will the rain stop, I say soon, rain awhile only. Then when we got out of the cab, it stops. God is playing joke on us man. Wasted 5plus on cab.
I was hoping to see her at 201..cos i know she's there. But think i'm late. She's gone home or mayb to frens home.
Then after supper/breakfast. Went home and sleep. Lucky no work. IF not, it would be another record.. :)
6. School Starts
Yup, school starts yesterday,
the first things the say is, ITE East(Tampines) change name to ITE College Central(Tampines)
Woah. the word College is impressive lah.. But adding ITE, what makes it different dude? No doubt they want change to image of ITE thru change it's name tat sound nicer. But, the image is already fixed.
I heard a girl say, she rather repeat den going ITE while I was having supper/catchup session with Boon and gang.
So it make no much different in changing name.
First day, I'd already took half day leave. For me to go interview at TP Design School.
7. TP Interview
Well, it's a hopeful start for me but I think it's a hopeless end for me.
I was as usual, nervous and not confident enough. Didn't present my portfolio well. and was like anyhow say.. did alot of photoshop work, and showed them my flash. Website that i have help doing. But they ask me to improve on my sketching. I did only a few sketching and i did in anyhow. Holly S***. I shld have concentrate on sketching den photoshop..
The interviewer ask me to wait outside, den when he come out, he told me cannot give me a place today(10 jan 05). den ask me wait for letter. if no letter, ask me wait for olvl result den apply again. What a hidden meaning of "No letter will be send to you". And the lecturer know that I'm a ITE student, den if nv remember wrongly, he ask me to finish my two year ITE, den go ns, den poly. Woah piang. I already behind my fren for 1 year. if study 2 year. Then I would be far behind them.They would be working by den..For girl frens, by that time I finish ITE and ns, they would be in University year 2 already bah..
Haiz.. This blame count on myself, who ask me nv study hard for olvl...
Heaven, don't play anymore joke on me already.. Fate don't toy me around...
Hmmm.. what a Ending for a year 2004 and a start for 2005..
I'll end here now. If you are still reading, thanx. If you read half way den read bottom, try reading other parts while you are free/bored..
Takecare.. Peace out~
Let's see.
1.Working at a warehouse.(Whole holiday)
2.Finish doing the preview of my flash.
3.Bought new clothing.(Exclude shoes)
4.Went X'mas celebration(Fun)
5.New Year Celebration(Boring/Alone)
6.ITE 2nd sems starts
7.Went to TP for interview(Think can't get in.. :( Fated to be in ite)
Ok.that's briefly what things happened.
Let's get into more detail
1. Working
It's really an experience to work, no matter is it your first time working or not.
Every job has it's own challenge.
Logistic, or in Layman's term, warehouse management, it's sure not an easy job to do.
Don't get me wrong here, I'm not managing the warehouse, but from the experience that I had, It isn't an easy job. careful planning is needed
I can see, my workplace, I name it WT in short, doesn't plan it well.. their SQL system also got problem.Btw, SQL is database. There's still stock in the warehouse, yet the SQL read it as cannot find..Server also always down. Replenishment list always come in 10 over plus pages. Wonder the shop really does sale that much or not?haha..
Anyway, got some benefits too, like discount coupon given to staff. Well, actually it's benefit staff, yet they gave it at the time during end year sales. So whether or not to use the coupon or not, it doesn't really matter.
I got the chance of doing delivery for one day too.
Well, it's better to do delivery, cos most of the time you are sitting in the vehicle waiting.Then till destination, you unload the goods and send it to the shops. The only important thing is, you must be fit. To carry the good. I did sent yoshinoya's goods, and there is also benefit, you could ask for drink or food(It's free of charge) :)
But don't think I'll be returning there to work till my next Holiday. It's somehow tiring.
I did OT once till 10pm before. 5hrs of OT. That kills man..
2. Flash
As you can see, under My Flash I have include one more "14feb preview"
Though is is just a small intro, i used alot of time and effort..
And i doubt i can present the story on time..
Till den, Wait for my update.
3. New Clothing
Yup, I have bought some clothing. 1, 2, 3, 4. Yup I bought 4cloth. red jacket, Brown with dotted white stripe long sleeve, green t-shirt and last but not least a PINK shirt. haha
I can't believe that I bought a pink shirt. What on earth is my mind think at that time.
Mayb kanna psycho by the boss. but the shirt look nice. Mayb not on me.. Anyway, I still try. Got to give it. a try on everything right? life's short. Have to go tanning, get darker and wear pink, mayb look nicer or at least not that weird. :)
I only bought two jeans. or should I say cargo jeans? it's not normal type of jeans. It's abit like pants. I also dunno why my taste/style so different now.. haha.. Seemed like my fashion sense has gone.Dunno how to differentiate from nice and not.
One thing I haven't got-Shoe.It's seemed like no nice shoes available on the market now. All the design are almost the same. Well, I saw one, but it costs 99 Sing dollar. Not that I can't afford, it's like, what the hell, I dun even know the brand and it costs that much.. So I gave up on that choice. Mayb going to get an nike shoe/adidas/converse. Not sure. Hope I'll get it sooner.
4. X'mas Celebration(2004)
Before going for the celebration, I was working, somemore OT. So I'm scare cannot make it on time to meet my bunch of crappy Peng You(Fren). haha.. Well, but Dan and Me make it on time. Although we did not make it on time for dinner at a place which Kim said the food is nice or is it cheap?It's in Shaw tower, if I nv remember the name of the place wrongly.Forgot. We reached the place 8plus to 9. It's close. So we no choice, we walk to Bugis Junction and had our usual, FOODCOURT meal. haha. by the time we eat finish. It's 10 plus and I think we walk to orchard from there..
Meeting Jo/Joe(dunno the spelling) and his gf ar ISTANA, btw, Joe is Song Jun.
After which, Stan intro him self to his gf. while Boon, Dan and me keep to ourself. Think we are more introvert when meeting stranger.And of cos, not fogetting our casanova-Kim. Think he did intro him self, or he had seen Joe's gf before we do.
So we walk from Dhoby Ghaut to Somerset to Orchard. On the way, there were already people spreading the foams.. Human get crazy before the Real things starts.. haha..
Luckily we were not being "attack" before the counting down..But near to counting down, we were being spray. So as time goes on and on, and we being spray, end up we cannot take it also go buy the foam spray and starts spraying on everyone...Till countdown,It gets more crazy and crazier. Joe sent his gf home right after the countdown. Hmm.. Spoilt mood.haha
Walking down the road of orchard
You could see all the Black(India I mean) got attack by other racial group. and of cos, it's only chinese. As you can predict. I joined in the "Gang Bang" spraying. haha..It's so much fun. One group spraying another..
One thing to add on, mei3 mei4 only spray at Dan. So this conclude that Dan is the yandao in our group. Bo bian..pple handsome. :)
The spraying nv stop till 2plus den it gradually stop or not that many pple spraying.
Psss..We spent bout 30buck on those spread. CRAZY man!!.
So we were all feeling sticky with all the foams and party spray thing. got ourself clean up onnce yet got spray one more time.
After that, we walk back to Plaza Singapura, clean up again. Settling down outside PS.Feeling all tired out and Hungry. Good thing that there's an Creation of 24hr shop 7eleven and invention of instant. So few of us ate instant/titbit.(Joe is back with us,cos it's already 3plus)
Then we ton till around 430 and took a night rider back. It's damn expensive. 3buck per ride. well it pays to ton. haha.
Reach home bout 530, got about an hour of slp and went working.
Sat(X'mas), half day work, yet there are many things to finish, so work till 4. After work, reach home, planned to get some slp, yet. after bathe, it refreshes me somehow.
And got myself endup meeting Yvonne for a midnight show "meet the focker"(pronounce the focker as the rude word).
Then after show, when sunplaza park chat for bout half an hour and went back.
by that time, I been into a record of 45hr, of? Nv slp.. woah..record..haha
that ends how my x'mas spent last year. It's better than staying at home for year 2003.
5. New Year Celebration
hmm.. New year celebration isn't that fun as X'mas'. Went to wedding dinner on the eve after my work, den when downtown to find kim. Yet when I reached there, I tried calling him and sms, he didn't reply or answer the phone. So I find myself a place outside the celebration party/concert is held, and stood there like Invisible/idiot. Tried call kim before the countdown and it goes..toot toot toot..and all i heard is the operator voice. yup, toot as i'm feeling. Then I'm leaning on a pillar, watching the many pple walk past me, the couple that walk past, infront, left and right of me. It was like, Oh My God, you don't give me a gf already nvm, leave me alone in the celebration and watch the many couple that is around me. the only face I could show that time is sulked. And there goes the countdown. I was like, Oh big deal. and stood there quietly. then 2005 reached, an couple beside me, hugged. "Ha" "Ha", lucky they are not kissing.. If not, I'll name the celebration the worst chapters in my life..
Ok bout 1230+, Kim called back, den we when back to his "company" 's chalet.. he keep intro me to his colleague, but think I remembered only two name. Leslie and Junwei. Yup, you see it right. another person name Junwei.
hmm.. In these pass month, I've known bout 3 person name Junwei, But in chinese, english spelling, I think some is different. Junwei quite a common name now huh? last time nv meet more then 1. haha. i know bout 5 Junwei now. O.O amazing huh?
Ok, before I side-tracked, after the chalet which I stay about 2-3hr, Me and Kim walk to 201. half way thru walking, we rest for awhile, kim leg pain/tired. forgot. after the rest, we walk awhile, I say going to rain, den another few steps, it started to rain. Unlucky mouth. den we flap for a cab. kim ask me when will the rain stop, I say soon, rain awhile only. Then when we got out of the cab, it stops. God is playing joke on us man. Wasted 5plus on cab.
I was hoping to see her at 201..cos i know she's there. But think i'm late. She's gone home or mayb to frens home.
Then after supper/breakfast. Went home and sleep. Lucky no work. IF not, it would be another record.. :)
6. School Starts
Yup, school starts yesterday,
the first things the say is, ITE East(Tampines) change name to ITE College Central(Tampines)
Woah. the word College is impressive lah.. But adding ITE, what makes it different dude? No doubt they want change to image of ITE thru change it's name tat sound nicer. But, the image is already fixed.
I heard a girl say, she rather repeat den going ITE while I was having supper/catchup session with Boon and gang.
So it make no much different in changing name.
First day, I'd already took half day leave. For me to go interview at TP Design School.
7. TP Interview
Well, it's a hopeful start for me but I think it's a hopeless end for me.
I was as usual, nervous and not confident enough. Didn't present my portfolio well. and was like anyhow say.. did alot of photoshop work, and showed them my flash. Website that i have help doing. But they ask me to improve on my sketching. I did only a few sketching and i did in anyhow. Holly S***. I shld have concentrate on sketching den photoshop..
The interviewer ask me to wait outside, den when he come out, he told me cannot give me a place today(10 jan 05). den ask me wait for letter. if no letter, ask me wait for olvl result den apply again. What a hidden meaning of "No letter will be send to you". And the lecturer know that I'm a ITE student, den if nv remember wrongly, he ask me to finish my two year ITE, den go ns, den poly. Woah piang. I already behind my fren for 1 year. if study 2 year. Then I would be far behind them.They would be working by den..For girl frens, by that time I finish ITE and ns, they would be in University year 2 already bah..
Haiz.. This blame count on myself, who ask me nv study hard for olvl...
Heaven, don't play anymore joke on me already.. Fate don't toy me around...
Hmmm.. what a Ending for a year 2004 and a start for 2005..
I'll end here now. If you are still reading, thanx. If you read half way den read bottom, try reading other parts while you are free/bored..
Takecare.. Peace out~
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