Feburary--A very sad month.
Firstly, we've got CNY on the 9th Of Feb
Secondly,we've got Valentine's day which is on 14thfeb.
Thirdly, we've got olvl results
CHINESE NEW YEAR-CNY
This year CNY, it's been the most unwanted type of CNY by most of the unmarried pple.
Especially for me. Why? The money from the total amount of ang bao I've received, less then 160. OMG, this amount didn't even cover the amount that I bought for 1shirt, 2 T-shirt, 1 3/4pants,2 long pants and a pair of shoes. This year CNY i "dao tie" money. Nvm..Go work got money liao..
Valentine's Day-V day
V day, should be a happy day for many, but not for those single. True enuff, and this year v day, I'm more depressed then any other v day i've been through. I found out that she's back with him again(found out on v day itself). Tears fill my eyes, no doubt. Heart feeling pain, but not as much as the first time. Maybe I've already predicted that soon they will back together again, so it's just like another normal news. But it's really the world turning in my head I know when she still accept a man who loves her once, and hurt her twice.
Sometimes I really wondered, why am I always the one ending up in misery? Why some guys gets the girl he wants easily, yet they don't treasure them?Who am I in her heart?Though it's a question that easily be answered, I'm placed as friend in heart heart. Friend, this english word, I've heard it more than once.It's always the word "friend" would came out when I confess that I like that someone. Am I living in this world only to be friend with everyone? What a destiny.
Enough of my complain. On V day afternoon, I'd met up with Jiangshu.The funny thing is, she bought a stalk of rose, and for me.It was sweet of her to do this little thing, but it somehow weird for a guy to receive rose?haha.Went shopping in TM and we saw kwa junwei. In the first place he tot me and jiang when on date!? haha. He asked:"jiangshu no bf meh?" I say have, but working. I just accompany her walk walk only. haha. saw zhen dong also..
After walking few round in TM and jiangshu had bought the a bag for herself, we went to Cai 'E house, put a stalk of rose outside her house and left. Then I sent her home before I went orchard to me my ITE friends.
Planned to go buy a bouquet of rose and put it outside her house. Took bus 28 and I saw kwa junwei again. So coincidence eh? Then he told me he also want to buy a rose for the girl he likes, so we went a rose shopping in century. Actually I want to buy a bouquet of 6 roses. but it cost 55bucks. So I end up buying only one stalk of rose, which isn't cheap also. The rose is pale yellow, wanted to get a pink rose, but, the roses available almost withered. Kwa is very lucky to get the pink rose which still looks fresh. Blame it on me to be so indecisive.
He accompanied me to her house(since the place he going is near the place i going) and then I left the rose outside. Didn't write anything on, not even to whom, just hoping she would receive.
After leaving the flower outside her house, went to orchard and meet up with my frens. Alot of of couple indeed(-.-' it not it's not V day). My fren purpose is to get number from girl on that day, but it seemed like not our day. it's either no girl, or the girl got a bf already. haha. Fate.
AFTERMATH
She received my stalked of rose. And I'm glad. But she didn't know it was from me, I didn't tell her so. I ask her indirectly. did she receive roses? she say ya, but dunno from who. I say, receive a bouquet? She replied no 1. I say mayb is he gave one. But she say no, and she know not from him. She had ask it is me?!But I'm still denying. then she say cannot be her poly fren. Haha. Guess she won't know who gave it. And I told her to see next year the person got give or not loh. Maybe I'll let her know on her bday, or maybe next year v day den let her know. Though the rose can't change the situation now. I could only hope she would be happy no matter what.
Olvl Result
I feel that my life is in a mess. And olvl result coming soon. Think I'm staying in ite. got a feeling the result is worst den last year the result I'd got. Somemore guitar string break one. Bad omen.
断了的弦，结回去了，是否音调还会一样？
