wat a letdown when i saw my final sems result. got a C for my (flash and video) module. and B for my (3D and photoshop) module. Damn it... I can't believe i got a C for that module. my flash i didn't do a lousy job although it's simple in design, moreover video project I done a lot. I should get A or not at least B. something wrong. Den i didn't expect my 3d to get B. yet i get B. expected C. Think should be my photoshop pull me up. But STILL, overall gpa dropped by 0.2. 3.1 to 2.984. damn it.. my chance of getting in poly is less now. ARGHH!!!!! why can't i just get into poly.. argh.. why is it like that.. argh..
Dun talk bout this. another thing oso make me feel frustrated..
my IIC(institute ic), ask me be wat sector ic for the upcoming June campaign. Then ask me contact member and do home visit. argh.. all this is ok. but it's like, they keep give me role to do. Den every week must meet up. argh.. den everytime meet up oso only about buddhism. I wonder the ic already become buddha already or not. there's no one time he talk about other thing other den buddhism. Wonder if he's a human. this have been making me feel uneasy recently. it's like they "zou huo lu mo". It's really extreme. We are still human..
Yes, buddhism we must learn and understand and it's our life. but not always and everytime talk about those buddhist fundamental each and everytime we meet..WE ARE HUMAN! must apply to life. not by always telling us those buddhist teaching and expect us that we catch it and jus use it. But I believe not everyone is like this.. Some of them is just really extreme.. it's to the max that I can take it.. I need a space to breathe.. And oso one thing i wanted to say, it's only when got wat campaign den i see everyone trying to shakubuku people. It shouldnt be like this..
hmm..ok.. overall, i think it's just that i'm feeling uneasy about being sector ic for this campaign and uneasy about those extreme people. DEVILISH FUNCTION..
Recently alot of devilish function in me.. either headache, fever or dizzy suddenly. devilish function in me to make me feel that my ic is extreme. although he is abit extreme.. I think mayb it's becos of my low life condition recently that all the devilish function come find me.. I must chant alot daimoku to overcome all this and my fundamental weakness. The oneness of life and it's environment. It's true.. once my life condition is low, everything else seemed negative to me. no confident in accomplish anything oso. i think if now i want woo a girl, it will turn out disaster. my life condition mus be high. trying 15hours daimoku a week..
haha.. enuff of my complain. update soon.. yeah.. Friday rendezous concert is here again.. but this time round it's at SYC. the place is small.. arghh.. den i got no chance to perform this time round.. nvm.. I will fight for my chance again in another concert. there's more concert upcoming in SSA. anybody interested? haha. call/sms me..
byebye and takecare..
it's been so long baby
so many hours, so many day
我心里的这句话还是想对妳说
SA Rang Hae Yo..
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