Random post. I still feel.

Gd morning...ok. the time now is 5.21am Wednesday. tat's early.. haha.
well, not that i wake up early. just tat i have not sleep yet.
oh well.. my day become night n my night become day. haha.. exams in like 60hrs more.
die.. not even one chapter i've done studying.

ok. went mac just now with yvonne to study awhile. yah. study.. but i didnt really focus. As always, cannot study with frens. lol.. think i'm best at studying alone. well.. read thru chap 6. and slack there. till bout 1am. den poof to hm..

ok. i think i super random today. and yup. so here's a random post..

i'm actually quite happy. you replied me. at last. well, sending you gd nite msg you wont reply,send you my emo msg you oso wont reply, send you sensei guidances den you will reply. asking why i suddenly sms you that. well, basically didnt only sent it to you. haha.. and i didnt expect you to reply. so yup.. exchanged few msg, and you stopped replying. -.-' why always like
that. Anyway, it's ok. You seemed fine. Life is so fun for you cos of ndp. haha.. bet you know some new guys. u say no one woo you, all too young or too old. lol.. anyway, i wanted to ask, so can i woo you again? yah. WANTED. but i didnt. cos i know once i said that, you wont reply. and if you reply the answer would be no, I guess. hmm.. well, of cos if I know you got
new guy i will be sad. and of cos, it's stupid of me. Just like the song I've wrote, 是我傻(Stupid me). well direct translate. haha. ok. digress. the lyric, is just wat I feel. Definately the song is for you. I've always, and still regard you as my gf. everytime when i say something that links with you, I say my gf blah blah blah. haha. ok. i'm sorry. I know you are not mine
now.. but den I just couldnt say ex gf. cos my heart still beats for you, at least till now it is still. I'm not sure whether you are reading this or not. mayb yes, mayb no.. I'm so contradicting.. want hope you will read. yet oso wont read it. dunno how you would react. or no reaction. Hope you read so you can reply wat i want to ask. but scare tat it's not the answer I want to hear. lol.. humans..

people told me to let go. yah. let go is easier to say than done. Last time I told my fren, let go bah, time would heal. Now is my turn. haha.. cause and effect..
well, I'm trying to let go. I'm really trying.
Dance and dance n dance.. nothing but dance.. but den, sometimes, some small stuff make me think of you. Small little action. or words.

Fireworks makes me think of the time we had last year.
my birthday reminds me of those sweet little present you made and gave me..
Songs I've always sing for you during all the night we were on the phone.
Bus 59 reminds me of the trips to your house.
the sport tat let us know each other-Roller blade..
Zoo day was a fun day with you.
Movies definately worth much more watching with you.
Staying up late at nite to help you with your work is a joy. Though I complaint. but dun mean it.
Those time tat I could hold your hand, seeing you falling aslp on my lap. I told myself.. I'm the most happiest and fortunate man, okok. I know I look young, so most happiest and fortunate boy in the world. Nothing else could be happier.

You said you felt insecured. Say it's time for me to look at only you. yah. of cos I dun deny I look at girls. But den, my heart doesnt beat for them. It only beats for you. But I didnt say it.
You came my house and cried suddenly, I knew something was wrong. And I guessed it right. I was afraid that I might lose you. tat time but then, thank you for still loving me after you think about it...
All I need is a little more time and I could acc you after I finish my proj. tat day I was quite happy cos of my new nice haircut(haha )and wanted to meet you, but you say your nephew going your house.So end up,we didnt meet. I was happy when I called you then, but our story ended that very day. I shouldnt have made the choice. I am fool.. I sounded I'm ok. I tot I'll be ok. But still... tears flows like FREEFLOW of drink for pizzahut buffet. lol..

bout 1month after we broke, you msged suddenly around 2am. said you were afraid, can't slp cos of new environment. didnt know who to sms den only could sms me. I'm so happy.. Yayness!! In my heart I thinking if i still have the chance. But den I dare not think too much. haha.. after which, no news from you.

have been sending bout 3 emo sms to you for the past months. Sorry if I irritate you.. but den, I just miss you.. I'm not going to send you anymore tat kind of msg. I guess I should move on.
I hope I can. But I still hope I got one more chance..

Dunno why but I can't fall into another r/s. It's seemed like u will appear in my mind when I tried to move on.. I still missing you.. it's badly. tat bad..

ok.. people.. i'm not being emo-ing here. so i'm fine yah. hahaha.. just feelings...

haha. woah. machiam just broke off. den write those stuff. haha. ok. i'm tired. ending off.. time now is 6.43am, wed. tata..
takecare and smile..