Friday, September 23, 2005

what a life..

yesterday when la teh with the gang, discussing what to do the next day which is today..cos have celebrate dan's bday..then very tired..

today reach sch at 0845hr.. which i was supposed to reach at 0800hr... den do finish java assignment can go liao.. waste my time.. so went home, had breakfast and den poof.. down to simei ite for the weekly sharing session. I was supposed to be the one sharing. but den, today not much people come down for the session, so didnt get to share.. also good lah... i haven really prepare well..

Talking about yest.
A ymd came to my for and ask me to fill up the form for enshrining gohonzon.(those wont dunno know what it is, nvm)
I'll told my mom i want enshrin gohonzon, but nv say when i going to enshrin.. but the ymd came and down for home visit and i fill in the form first..
Actually I dunno why i suddenly want to have a gohonzon at home..no reason.. but when my sis know about it..she had a serious debate with that ymd..real serious..talk from bout 6plus to 8pm..she gave reason of why dun want so fast receive gohonzon..It's like, some things she say is quite true lah.. but some, i dun agree with.. dun wanna explain much.. if not it will be a long long post..

after few thought..i was thinking,do i really want this buddhism to stay in the rest of my life or just becos of pressure from those leaders of keep asking people to enshrin gohonzon..

hmm.. sometimes i think it's more on to the pressure.. it's like, when they have the target campaign to shyakubuku people, i mean, i also agree that we want to bring happiness to all human..but happiness is not by forcing/pressurizing/pestering people to enshrin gohonzon..people have to do it out of their willingness to bring gohonzon back to the family..that's what my sis had also said lah..quoting her view also.."gohonzon is always in us..we can even chant without gohonzon in the house,if we have the faith in gohonzon and the buddhism.."
it's quite true lah, what my sis said..but, if we have faith in the gohonzon, den can chant without it, i was thinking, den what for we have the physical gohonzon if we can chant without it..human being easily gets affected by the environment, anything can happen..we might lose this faith anytime...
i dunno what to say.. she's just a stubborn head sometimes..

think i wont be enshrining gohonzon this year..I'll will make a firm thoughts on whether i would want this buddhism in the rest of my life or not..

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

When situations like this happen, it's time to ask yourself some questions:

- Do you choose to be a follower of Buddhism because you want to? Or is it because of other people influencing you?

- Do you want to have a religion because you NEED a God to depend on and to pray to?

- Are you REALLY comfortable being a follower of Buddhisim now?

Hope these questions will help you to find your answer :)

Stan

Anonymous said...

Other people can only influence your opinions, but you are the one who makes the DECISIONS in the end.

When you are making decisions, do not 感情用事.

Other people get upset only because you are not doing it according to what they want. But this is YOUR life!

You decide what you want for yourself!


- Stan

Jun Wei said...

this buddhism is not worshipping any god.. so that's answered to the second 2nd you let me think..
I'm more than comfortable to being a follower in buddhism..that's answer the 3 qns..

as what i have said, i'm thinkng is it because external influence/pressure or am i willingly to become one..

anyway, thanx for your advice dude..takecare and cya!!

Anonymous said...

Believe in the Truth. And the Truth will set you free.

Life is about getting the answers, so search for it. Are you following a philosophy just because it is impressive. I have seen many many impressive philosophies, none of which is really true. So think for yourself. And when you despair, don't say there is no answer and slump into a state of relativism. It doesn not help your despair anymore than searching for it does.

Anonymous said...

hmm...just make sure you have your own thoughts and not just blindly agreeing or easily being influenced by whatever kind of leaders you have. Whoever uses his/her authority or power to pressurize people into accepting something, he/she DOES NOT fit to be a leader....because the person can't even relate to his/her people!

Leaders are not always right! Have your ever wonder why such people became a leader then? cos you people made him/her one, plus people always think leaders are right...which is wrong! Leaders can be stupid and brainless too.....

Have you all met yours? I have!

Jun Wei said...

the leader doesnt use their power or authority to pressurize.. infact, any member will also ask to enshrin..anyway. it's still my choice whether to enshrin or not. :) by the way.. who is anonymous? pls put your name at the end if you wanna give some comment/advice.. thank you..