random

nothing much to talk about. Got back my TT results. Well, guess i'm lucky enuff to pass all subjects. score well for 1, did super badly for another. the rest moderate.. haiz.
guess my GPA will drop below 3.5 this sem.. Must buck up...

Anyway, went for dance sub-comm interview just now.. I say alot of crap.. shldn't have say i can organise thing. lol.. later ask me organise outing.. sian half.. no wisdom to say the right stuff..
ok. hopefully dun ask me organise. lol..

wat else to update. Hmm.. ok. let's show off abit. haha. got into Director list, will be getting the cert on 27thjuly. haha. think this will be the first n last time i can get the cert. result dropped.. -.-'

n YESSS!!! we finally finished choreographing dance steps. n 1 more week to the competition.. So excited.. yet.. haha.. ok.. well, experience. NO matter win or lose.. :) let's do well guys. if anyone's reading. lol.. n to the other groups who joined, JIA YOU!!!.. ok..so random..
yah.. recently the trend is saying this: "so random". n i dunno why.. lol...

shall stop here. nothing much n lazy to type. smile people!!

A promise and Now that she's gone

I know you might be reading this
but it's not written on purpose to let you see
just kinda of feeling emo recently.
but I guess I'll go on without you.

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I don't bout you
But I do think of the times
we used to share together
it felt so sweet
but hurt so bad

Every thing keep flashing in my mind
the places we went
the things we've done
and the complains you had on me

The ticklish hand signature
and the stamp that comes after that
kinda of childish yet
it's the promise I've made

A promise that we will never be apart
it's being broken now
and never be mended
A memory that stay in the heart
once there

always there

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Girl you know I miss you so
I didn't know you had to go
you've had enough of our distance baby
before I had the chance to say
I'm staying with youfor the rest of my life

Don't keep telling me these words
you don't know how much it hurts
and I'll promise you eternity
if you promise me your stay
but now it's too late
I'm no longer the man that I was

I will go on without her
like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
a fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
when my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
now that she's gone
what's left of us is this song

Don't keep telling me these words
you don't know how much it hurts
and I'll promise you eternity
if you promise me your stay
but now it's too late
I'm no longer the man that I was

And I'll go on without her
like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
a fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
when my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
now that she's gone
what's left of us is this song

Baby I know I'm a fool

And I will go on without her
like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
a fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
when my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
now that she's gone
what's left of us is this song

This is our song without a soul
now that you're gone
what's left of us in this song

a day lying

Dun like the feeling of sick...had myself lying on bed almost more den 24hr yesterday. Vomitted on tuesday 4.30am , halfway thru my sleep -.-'' feeling nausea.. damn.. Wonder is it the food i had at seoul garden or some other stuff...Argh..

Didnt wake up until 4plus in the afternoon. Simply becos no strength and feverish feeling.. Woke up awhile n back to continue my rest cus i can't take the dizziness..Woke up another time at 7plus to 8, watch a bit of tv. ate abit of porridge, not much of an appetite. n i couldn't take it again, so went back lying.. Lying down feels much better.. So slept from 9pm to 11plus n I woke up again. Still feeling dizzy, feverish, nausea plus back ache...n oso feeling kind of hungry yet I can't seemed to eat anything.. So mum cook a bowl of mee suah.. tried finish eating it. If not i will be die of hunger n not fever. lol.. n YES.. finally i finish my 1st complete meal of the day.. hahaha..

Ok.. nothing much after that. Watch bit of tv.. Den continue slping, yet and again. haha... Sick man dun feel awake...

Missed yester plus today of WSS. but Heng enuff that they did nothing much as tp network is down.. haha.. Hopefully I'm ok by tml. still have dance prac... Ok.. I'm craving for some gd food after I've thrown up.. lol.. takecare people.. smile.. :)

WSS training..

Monday Blues

What this means?

Colourful Life

POTC and more

let's talk bout yesterday, which was friday.

Met up with my group for dance training at 2pm n I was late. Sorry. Blame SBS. bus came in every 15min. Slow. Not much of a progress..Think only added 1more count of 8. Not really sure what the rest of the chorus are we doing. Den after which, all except me n Jeng Khit left for dance. So 2 of us went to CC to ask if how much they renting their dance studio. But, the answer given back: "Sorry, we don't rent our dance studio." -.-' wat the hell. I walked quite far to the CC, den gave me that answer. How can they be so stupid not to earn some money from renting the studio. -.-' well, nvm.. So went back to sch at 6.30 to continue the dance. yet nothing much. End up, we are deciding to remix songs. ok. Try our best.. to hype up. if not the only song we have is quite DULL. haha..

So went home around 830. Reach home 9plus. Use com awhile n I went out to watch Pirates with Boon n Dan. And the freaking time is 1.35am at PS. damn.. so met with Boon at bugis first. Went to find some place to eat. And thanks to Boon, Bring me walk one round the "Si Ma Lu" and we went back to the shop oppsite Parco. Had Mee Goreng n 1prata. The mee goreng quite nice.. somemore got egg on top which cost 3pm. So much cheaper den the one from Saffron. lol.
After our meal, walked to PS and the timing just nice.. Show ended at around 430. Den took NR7 back. The journey was ok near town. But it dragged in the area from bedok resevoir to tamp. Took half an hour turn here and there. Long bus ride. Reached around 6am today.

Ok. Den continue to today. slept 2hr. had to wake up at 8am to prepare for dance. So damn tired. Den after dance, slack around with lynette and her group till bout 1pm n den I left to go to my great grandma's 100th birthday celebration. Woo.. Wish that she stay healthy and live very very long. haha.. Great Grandma is being love.. :) So many grandchildren, and great grandchildren. haha.. But I was tired lah. So I went, eat something cos I'm so so hungry. Den I felt alsp while waiting for somemore people to come so that Lao Ma can start cutting the cake.

haha. Ok.. n now I'm back home blogging. That's bout it. I'm tired.. And I still need to remix song for the dance. TIRED.. n my Back still hurts.. muscle hurts too.. Need massages badly... Old liao. haha..ok. end.. smile.. :)

Woohoo.. Gimme That

back on blogging some usual stuff..

term test sucks. although it had been over like a week. Flunk it. sad. buck up on project n main paper i guess is the only way to able to maintain my results.

Today went to sch to meet up with my dance team.. Choreogaphing steps for the dance competition coming next month. So now we've got like 5count of 8. for 1st verse. 3more to go.. den to the chorus part..

it's not easy choreographing. And i hate it.. I rather people choreograph den i learn. haha.. But den, when you have your own steps, the feeling is great. haha.. contradicting.. haha.. human.....
Hopefully we can still continue the steps. I've run out of ideas. haha.. must watch more video..

Mayb try adding some popping n locking style. Must challenge ourself. haha..
next meet up is on friday. Guess we have to like buck up liao. must do more powerful steps..
meet up more often. And damn, my back hurts again.. Pain. Cannot dance too long.. I guess it's the old injury.Had a bad fall..Humpty Dumpty had a great fall. haha.. PAIN!!

Argh.. all this means that my term break will be use up. almost everyday have to go back to sch. Either for dance or for WSS.. arghh...well, i guess hard work pays off.. Dun have time to go JB, 'K' sessions, movie, earn money.. blah blah blah n the list goes on non-stop. So many stuff.. Busy.. yet I seemed abit Free. haha.. contradicting again..

That's bout it. Nothing interesting to be read.. haha.. smile.. takecare.. :H

A sense of purpose

"We realise our purpose in life by doing our very best where we are right at this moment, by thinking about what we can do to improve the lives of those around us."

"Why was I born into this world?" is a question which everyone asks themselves at least once in their life. I believe that having a deep sense of purpose -- knowing the depths of one's being what one was born for, is a great source of happiness.

A successful entrepreneur once remarked that even among the world's wealthiest people, those who lack a real sense of purpose in life often spend their final years in lonely solitude. Sometimes, having amassed great wealth and realised all their worldly ambitions, he found that they were left with a sense of emptiness and meaninglessness.

On the other hand, to be filled each day with a rewarding sense of exhilaration and purpose, a sense of tasks accomplished and deep fulfilment -- people who feel this way are happy. Those who have this sense of satisfaction, even if they are extremely busy, are much happier than those who enjoy great ease and leisure but feel empty inside.

A clear sense of purpose gives birth to courage and wisdom. It enables you to look beyond the victory or defeat of the moment and see things in their true perspective. It can fill each instant of life with joy, even in the midst of trying circumstances.

Whatever their occupation -- mother, company employee, artist, fisherman or farmer, I believe that each person has their own path in life; a unique mission that only they can fulfil.

Discovering this purpose or mission is a life long task. It is not something that someone can tell you or that comes upon you all of a sudden. You, yourself, must find the reasons for living, the unique contribution that is yours and yours alone to make.

Buddhism uses the example of flowering fruit trees -- cherry, plum, pear, etc -- to illustrate how each person has a unique mission in life. A cherry tree fulfils its purpose by blooming and bearing fruit as cherry tree. It never tries to be anything other than itself. It never imitates the blossoms of other flowering tress or wastes time being jealous of them. Rather, it patiently bears the frosts and snows of winter, drawing energy from the earth itself, pushing it's roots deeper into the soil. Then, with the arrival of spring, in a burst it unleashes all the life force that it had been storing up, sending forth countless blossoms.

Everyone has some kind of gift. Being talented does not mean just being a good musician, writer or athlete. There are many kinds of talent. You may be a great conversationalist, or make friends easily, or be able to put others at ease. Or you may have a gift for telling jokes, selling things or living economically. You may be be punctual, patient, reliable, kind or optimistic. Or you may love taking on new challenges, be strongly committed to helping others, or have ability to bring them joy. Without doubt, you possess your special jewel, your own unique talent.

In the same way, each of us has a mission that only we can fulfil. That mission will not be found somewhere far away, in doing something special or extraordinary. Even those people who seem to have led great lives have really only done what they felt they had to do in order to truly be themselves.

We realise our purpose in life by doing our best where we are right at this moment, by thinking about what we can do to improve the lives of those right around us.

I often think of the life of Rosa Parks, an ordinary African American woman returning home after a hard day's work in the tailoring section of a department store by bus one evening in December 1955. Although the bus driver ordered her to give up her seat to a white passenger, as the discriminatory law as of the times required, she refused. Her single word, "No." -- the courage of this one ordinary woman -- changed history, and her ordinary day took on an eternal significance. Rosa Parks was arrested for her resistance and this set off an explosion of righteous anger among the African American population, largely because of the regard in which she was held -- she was respected in her community as a cheerful, warm and intelligent woman. A boycott of the bus service was organised, and within a year segregated busing had been declared illegal throughout the United States.

When I first met Rosa Parks I was struck by her warm personality. She was humble and yet I could see that she was a person of unbending conviction. Now in her eighties, Rosa Parks remains an untiring champion of civil rights, working especially to share hope and a vision of the future with the young people she loves so dearly. Through her sense of conviction, this solitary individual become a leader who transformed the world. One moment of bravery opened the path of her mission in life.

You cannot discover and realise your purpose in life with half-hearted efforts. To follow the dream in your heart and fulfil your mission requires true courage. Not the courage of battlefield heroes, but a courage much closer to home. Most of us, before being defeated by a problem, are first defeated by ourselves. A weak-spirited or cowardly person, before hesitating at the wall of an obstacle, will shrink before his own shadow, frightened by his own imagination, and will be ultimately undone by the coward in his own heart.

Courageous people are first masters of their own heart. I firmly believe that courage is the key that opens the door to happiness.

To create value and contribute to the world, what do you need? You need to develop and polish your character until it shines. The ultimate strengths in life are not a clever tongue or wealth; nor fame or power. The real 'weapon' or 'tool' for living a successful life is what left over when all empty artifice has been stripped away -- the quality of your character as an individual. And small, steady efforts to develop yourself are what will lead you to the greatest happiness in the end.

You will not find your mission by standing still. The way to find it is by challenging yourself in something -- I would almost say it does not matter what. Then by making consistent effort, the direction you should take will open up before you quite naturally, just as wide, new horizons open up before someone walking up a hill. Little by little you will come to understand your mission. That is why it is so important to have the courage to ask yourself what it is that you should really be doing now, at this very moment.

It is likewise, important to set your sights high. The greater the tasks you choose to take one -- one step at a time -- the more rewarding and joyful your life will be. If you decide to dedicate your life to a truly noble objective, such as the work of creating a peaceful world for future generations, then you will be able to savour a truly deep sense of satisfaction and happiness.

A person with a strong sense of mission is a source of light. For such a person, there is no darkness in the world. and just as a single lighthouse can guide many ships through dangerous waters, a single person shining with the light of genuine happiness can help friends and family -- their entire society -- find the smooth open waters of peace and fulfilment.

The above essay was written by Mr Daisaku Ikeda, President of the Soka Gakkai International.

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Earning

I wanna own a MacBook myself. I'm gonna earn it.

All I need is time to work. Website designing oso can.

Time & money..

MacBook

went IT show yesterday with sis. Got a MacBook n wireless router. To find out after which, we can't connect the router to pc as our pc no ethernet adaptor/port. Damn sian. have to buy ethernet adaptor..

sad to say.. MacBook doesnt belong to me. belong to my sis. She say share the laptop. Then she asked me, I no need to bring to sch right. Then I say need, she say for wat. sch got lab. -.-' like that still say share. damn. wat for I use laptop at home.. Use desktop can liao. But the problem is, desktop in her room. So when she wanna slp, I can't use. Damn.. Sian half half half half...
Ok, well, nvm.. still can use the MacBook at least. Haven done Boot camp. So now cannot run XP. n the stupid ethernet adaptor which we have yet to buy. So we can't use wireless.. -.-'' sad..

Term test coming n I've yet to start studying. no mood. Think I will flunk my term test. The modules damn difficult to score. How I wish I was back to yr1. Close eyes oso can pass.. now, open eyes oso cannot pass. Mayb nv "open" ears.. haha..

Went to airport yest to sent Ah gong and Ah ma off to shanghai.. My ah gong very cute. Say the tour all "Xiao lian" which mean young people. He sian half. den I say nvm, you oso "Xiao lian" mah. haha.. Den he laugh laugh n took my cap to wear, n he wear till so hip hop lah.. the cap still slant one side. hahaha.. too bad nv take pic with him.. haha... so ke ai.. Yup, my ah gong, that's why I so ke ai oso. Cos my ah gong oso ke ai. lol.. Ok. enough.. haha..

Unice called yest to ask me wanna join dance competition? So I agree. Den have to find people to team. Wooohoo.. So excited.. Can't wait to the competition. Although I'm not gd at dancing. Haha, well, experience is wat it takes. haha.. Any more interesting stuff for me?

Oh well, MilkRun mass dance.. they changed the song to "Jin Wu Men". But the steps very uhhh. cannot make it. The dance so shuai, but now become like aerobic dance. Singapore Workout - Jin Wu Men version. lol.. Should ask me choreograph. haha. I know the actual chorus part.. haha.. ok.. I should not say anything.. It's people hard work.. Can't critisize.. Mayb the step was to allow those who dunno how to dance to remember quicker, easily i mean.. Ok.. Claps.. no comments..

End of blabbering.. takecare.. smile..